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Thursday, April 28, 2005
I'm supposed to go for an interview at OCBC tomorrow.. but darn I having a fever.. running 38.1 degrees..
=(
if i ain't got you|10:36 PM|

Sunday, April 24, 2005
Yayz~ No work tomorrow! *jumps around like a mad woman* *grins happily* =D
if i ain't got you|11:59 PM|

I think ppl should stop blaming the government. I think I have not realised how fortunate am I in the past.
Let's tok about the opening of casinos.. Hmm.. If u think of the larger picture.. I think it's a good thing.. Isn't it good if Singapore's economy will improve? And best of all.. isn't it good to have more jobs? And also, isn't it good to have more ppl visiting our country? U tok about how ppl will pick up gambling.. well.. I think we should start being more responsible for our own actions and stop blaming the government. It's not goverment's fault that some of us pick up gambling.. All of us have a choice to go to the casino/ buy 4D etc. We can choose to bet or not to bet. If u choose to bet, that's ur choice, not the government.. wad for blame them? If all these places are closed down.. Singaporeans are going to complain again.. So wad exactly u ppl want? Have u all ever tot about the good things the government has done for us? How many countries u go that u can just drink the water simply from the tap? How many chances do u see ppl holding a gun at the streets? Do u always fear about safety when u ppl go out in the night? Do u know the tax in other countries are much higher? Did u ever realise that Singapore is always lighted up although it's in the night? How about education? Did u know that the government actually subsidies for us and in fact we dun have to pay so much for our education. If our education wasn't that tough.. do u all think that we will work hard be someone?
Why not stop complaining and think about wad have u done for Singapore society.
Talking about not enough money.. why not think about those ppl in other countries who dun have roofs over their heads and even having trouble to think about their daily meals.
if i ain't got you|1:16 PM|

Saturday, April 23, 2005
I came down with a flu and Darling has a sore throat.. wad a day to start off our first day of freedom.. =(
if i ain't got you|8:01 AM|

Friday, April 22, 2005
Alright.. since it's graduation day today.. shall extend my thanks to some of the people here ~~~ Sorry if I've forgotten any names! (not according to any order)
Derrick aka Darling: Ahahaha.. I know I'm bias but I have to start with him first.. Hehhee.. He was actually my good friend suring year 1 but dunnoe wad happen.. but nevertheless thanks for all the late nights toking over MSN =) U filled up my lonely nights then~ U are the reason why I feel that choosing BI in NMYP is worthwhile. Love ya!
Wee Leng: Crappy friend as usual. Can joke with him lotsa things and he's really a nice guy. Thanks for brightening my days in OCBC and in school. =) Girls, go for him!
PT: Only known her better after attachment and I really find that she's a cute and friendly girl. =) She is also very smart. Good luck to ur future, girl~
Ronald: OCBC lost sheep~ Or rather Ronald McDonald selling mutton~ Hahhaa.. this guy is really cranky at times and he's also a gentleman. His gf is truely lucky to have him as a bf. Good luck to you and ur Xiao Tian Tian!!! Really nice working with you! Wish u and ur bf happily ever after!
Melissa: U know u are kinda similar to WL.. ahhahaa.. crack funny jokes and really nice to tok to.. Yah.. I still remember the truth or dare =) Let's keep in touch and meet up some time okie? Thanks for being such a nice friend! Wish u and ZF happily ever after!
Benjamin: Eh, eat more can?! I've been repeatedly telling u to eat more.. Hahahz.. Anyway thanks for being such a good buddy and piggy brother.. Wish u and gf eternal bliss!! Thanks for listening to my problems at times too.. Cheerios!
Shannen: I'm real glad we are friends again and the memories in the past are not easily forgotten.. 3 years and we have changed in a way of another.. but nevertheless thanks for being a great buddy! Wish u and Si Wei always together!
Chee Khiang: Dun be so dirty anymore.. ahhahhaa. Work hard okie? And also thanks for the happy times in NYP. Wish u and ur gf good luck! Eh, rmemeber to invite us to ur wedding hor!
Sean (Son) & Geraldine (Daughter-in-law): Heya! Really feet happy for the both of you!!! Hope you too will live together happily ever after.. dun think about the past anymore k? It's a new beginning!! I want to receive the red card soon!
Doreen: Been close with u quite a while and we might be schoolmates when we go NUS! Well, thanks for being there and really.. sometimes u have to relax abit. =) Cheers girl~ Wish u and Max good luck!
Yu Yun: She's really my good friend during FYPJ.. I've realsied that she's like my elder sister whom I can confide my problems with.. Thanks for being there sweetie~ Thanks for listening to my problems too =) Keep in touch k?
Ling Xuan: Got to know her thru Benjamin.. wad can I say.. she's cute, cheerful, pretty and bubbly. =) She's really a very nice girl and nice to work with too. Stay cheerful k girl?
Kang Ren: Know ur presence in BI quite some time le.. coz everytime see Darling toking to you.. and it's really not difficult to notice you. (ooPz, sorry Darling~) You are a nice friend but smtimes I really hope u are not too pessimistic~~ Next time u wanna chase girls ar.. pls dun be like that hor.. coz hor.. girls prefer cheerful bfs leh~~ =) Take care and good luck!
Mr Chew: He ar.. crappy teacher.. young at heart.. also very girlie (oOpz--> but he admitted that) I would really like to thank him for telling me some insightful things and make me feel
there are more to life. Keep in touch k!
To the rest of DBI0213, thanks for being there~~ thanks for making the class lively.. thanks for making these 3 years move like a breeze..
Did I leave out anyone? Please tell me.. Sorry ar..
if i ain't got you|3:32 PM|

Last day today~~ ZzzZzzz.. slept about one plus last night and woke up about 7 today.. Hehez.. I made sandwiches for WL, Xiao Yang Yang, PT and of coz my Darling =). I really hope they like it. It's just a simple breakfast, ham with egg~ My mother say the egg is tasty coz it's kampung egg and the ham is shaved ham..
When I was on the train I came acorss this notice. "Lack of sleep will make you put on weight becoz with inadequate sleep, your metabolism rate will decrease.. I believe it's so true.. No wonder my weight was maintained in the past even though I sleep alot~~ This means I ahve enough rest.. Starting year 2 of poly.. I began to be more busy with my work and also sacrifice my slp becoz of TV programs.. Ahaha guess I'm going to catch my sleep after my IPP.. hehehezz
I kinda miss NYP, I kinda miss my class... ;(
I'm going to graduate today...
if i ain't got you|10:08 AM|

Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Wednesday! Which means left 2 more days to my graduation! I can't wait!!! I've realsied that if I wanna go NUS.. I have to take this placement test which is the Introductory Mathematics Placement Test.. It consists some topics of A Level Maths. I really wonder how am I going to study that if I've confirmed going into NUS.
I dunnoe why I've been very tired lately.. haha maybe my mind has already set to the "holiday" mood? Anyway let's not discuss about this.. After being here for 11 weeks and 3 days... I've noticed smthing about the ladies in OCBC. I've realised that the ladies here like to spend quite a long time in the toilet. I wonder what they were doing inside.. Although I might be the last to go in.. but high chance I would be the first to get out. hahha PT and I suggested that there are quite a few reasons to it.
1) Poo-ing (Damn, some of them real stinks and soiled the toilet bowl terribly--toking about a lady.. sigh..)
2) Sleeping (There's a high chance to that becoz I've heard about ppl slping when they on the toilet bowl)
3) Slacking (It's embarrassing to slack in the office)
4) Do some personal business ( I dunnoe wad kind.. let ur imagination run wild then..)
I dun believe they take a very long time to pee!
WL is reading Ronald's bible.. wonder what's wrong with him..
if i ain't got you|10:20 AM|

Tuesday, April 19, 2005
When I was talking about chocolates to Wei Long yesterday, my Darling surprised me with a box of chocolates! So sweet~ is assorted chocolates and I've tried a few.. it's nice =) hehez.. it's been some time I ate chocolates. Thanks dear :)
My hair looks like a brush.. need to rebond soon again..
if i ain't got you|10:25 AM|

Monday, April 18, 2005
Monday!! Final Monday!! This will be my last week in this OCBC~ Can't wait to leave u know.. Not that I can't wait to leave NYP~ It's such a pity that I'm not studying for this term.. but anyway I'll be going back to school next Monday. ^o^x
When I was on the train today.. I was into thoughts again.. I thought about my sec school days.. boy.. I really miss them.. especially that grp of babes~ Spent all our free time gossiping and crack cranky jokes. In such a jiff, we have known each other for 7 years plus. I would say the way we were together eventually is kinda weird, funny and memorable.. there were both love and hatred. Right here, I would really extend my thanks to some of u.
Yan Rong : Thanks girl for being the first person who talked to me~ Thanks for having the same surname as me too.. wahahaha.. and sorry to threaten you on ur first day~~ Lolz~ Thanks for listening to my problems and thanks for giving me sound advice to certain things.. Thanks for being such a good friend. =) One mroe impt thing.. thanks for willing to drive me around.. hahhaha
Celeste: Sat with u together for about 3 years and I won't forget the time when u have to move ur seating place, I weeped. I won't forget the times when we have the same tutor and me there encouraging you and I broke down again when u passed ur test with flying colours~ Lolz~ I also won't forget the times I went to the Dance and Britsh Council with you and most imptly.. the London trip~ Thanks for eating junk with me too.. wahhaha!
Lindy: You are like my lil sister and I'm pretty glad that when U have problems you would confide in me. I would really love to treat u as my lil sister~ Coz u are so cute!! *pinch pinch. First I would like to say I'm sorry that I do not know what's going on with u and Patrick. I thought things were fine between the both of you~ But nevertheless, you found a new love and beginning and I'm so happy for u! Thanks for being there and brighten up my days!
Yishan: We have never been very close till the day U stood up for me when I just broke up with Ernest and you have been a very caring and thoughtful friend. It's been quite some time we have seen each other and all of us hope that u could spare more time for us.. And pls.. remmeber our Birthdays!
Jovin: I've sat with you throughout the whole of Sec 4 and I think if we never get to sit with each other.. we wouldn't be still talking to each other.. Thanks for listening to my complains and thanks for not listening to class and revise work with me.. wahaha!! Good that you found ur love and treasure him okie?
Of coz there are many things to say but I won't bore you.. Hey girls.. my IPP is coming to an end? Are we rocking on? I can't wait!
if i ain't got you|9:18 AM|

Friday, April 15, 2005
Today is Friday!! Yay.. weekends~~ One more week to go and I'm free of this crappy cum shit place.. I dunoe wad life they have in this department.. most of the programmers look very stress.. I think the 4 of us are pretty much the happiest bunch.. hahaha..
And yay~ I'm getting my pay tomorrow... is like so finally~ I hope this time they really pay me.. if they deplay one more month again.. I dun have to go out >.< Pay not given out and I'm starting to spend quite alot..
Have to pay for my Sunway Lagoon trip expenses.. bought a perfume, bought darling an addidas polo T and still planning to get things for myself too.. U see the wish list -_-'
I really envy some of my friends.. those who had finished their exams especially.. they are like a free bird and most fo them already decided how to start a new chapter in their life.. me as usual.. will be continuing to study.. try and stop being a baby and trying to adapt a new life without seeing Darling... This also begins a new test for us.
I know after I go in Uni.. there are 2 outcomes.. either I study like siao char bo.. or I'll be a slacker and dropped out of school.. hahah. Chewing Gum says only after I go into Uni then I know wads studying is all about.. oh well sounds real stressful in there.
Oh yah planning to quit tuition after my kid has her exams... I dun think I can handle much after going into the Uni.. I want to fully concentrate on them. =)
if i ain't got you|2:33 PM|

Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Darling is going into Tekong on 10 June. T_T Letter was sent yesterday.. sigh.. we act as though he is leaving the next day.. But still, we feel sad.. coz we were not mentally prepared.
Darling has been very sweet.. he made an effort to meet up with me this morning and take the train with me... really glad to see him this morning.. Thanks darling =)
On my way to work.. I suddenly tot about an issue.. an issue which many NS man are afraid of.. (That is if they have gfs before they go into the army). I believe many guys out there are afriad that their gfs would run away to be with another guy. I agree.. some girls are really that *bitch* or should I say they want physical love rather than emotional love.. BUT come to think about it.. you cannot totally blame all the girls who did that!! Have u guys ever wonder why the girls didn't want to wait for u? Have u ever tot that becoz u are not worth waiting for? I'm not siding the girls here.. but there's this aspect where guys dun think about it and started pointing fingers~ And also.. guys dun feel sad if your girl leaves you.. this shows the true colours of the girl.. If it's meant to be.. it's meant to be..
Hey girls, I'm sure some of you out there have experiences on how to deal with life when ur dear bf went into NS.. Can I have some tips? Lolz~
Darling, just to let you know that I'll wait for you becoz it's all worth it. =)
if i ain't got you|9:31 AM|

Monday, April 11, 2005
I was having a "oh~ I'm going home soon" mood at about 6 plus.. then someone near my office desk disrupted my mood.
That one particular "Aunite" was shouting or rather scolding some guy who I think is a Flippino who had created the application.. She was "bitching" about ..
Auntie: " Why is this here? I told you that U have to pretend I dunnoe anything.. pretend I'm an ordinary user.. blah blah blah!!"
Guy: "But.. I tot.."
Auntie:"U listen to me... blah blah blah blah!!!"
Guy:"But.. U see.."
Auntie:"Wad?! I told you right.. not to blah blah blah!!!"
Wad the *.. if she thinks it's that easy to create an application..why dun she shut her fu*king gap and create an application herself rather than making a BIG fuss about an error that guy had done.. even it's an error.. can't she have the coutrtesy to tok to him nicely?! He's already quite poor thing.. coming all the way to Singapore and work and this Bit*h Auntie has to ruin Singaporean's image~ I felt so ashamed.. If she's that smart.. why is she only asked to test the program??
When she's here.. all I can hear is her horrible witch laughter together with another auntie.. Arghz!!! I can't stand them!!! How I wish I'm their supervisor and I would scold them till they weep to their husbands.. anyway I pity their husbands..
(I don't want to blog more.. otherwise more unpleasnat words will come out..)
if i ain't got you|9:59 PM|

Monday Morning!!! Another start of a new week! The best part about work is only about toking crap stuff with WL, PT and Xiao Yang Yang (Ronald) and also sometimes after work get to meet my dear Darling.
I just bought a new OP slippers yesterday.. hehehe.. toking about bo lui I still buy.. whahaah~ Cannot blame.. it's somehow a need coz my previous OP slippers are kinda worn out already. LO will be coming this week means I have to finish my report soon.. It's actually finished but then I haven't really arrange it properly.. Hmmm...
I'm a good girl today.. why.. ahhaa coz I was only late for work for 15 min.. Normally I will be late for 30 min or more.. Hmm.. coz I made an effort to wake up a lil earlier today~ =)
if i ain't got you|9:31 AM|

Sunday, April 10, 2005
Arh... My legs hurt again.. it happens every morning! =( Later have to go "sao mu". Every year's sao mu is getting later and later.. haha dunnoe why but still I dun have sufficient slp.. I also dun dare to slp coz my legs will hurt again.. Sigh.. dunnoe wad happen.
My IPP ends on the 22nd April.. and on the 26th, my classmates are having a grad trip at Sunway Lagoon! Well, it's a place I've always wanted to go since I was young.. I wonder how is it..
Today I told my parents that I was accepted by NUS.. and my mother asked me what's my decision.. I told her I dunnoe.. lolz.. then my Daddy was saying "NUS better la, NTU lousy" wahahaha Wad a funny statement.. But I think both schools are good lar.. just that NUS is being around longer I suppose..
I miss my dar dar already.. he must be sleeping soundly.. Heheh.. he looks very cute when he curl up and sleep.. Can't wait for holidays to come~!
if i ain't got you|9:18 AM|

Saturday, April 09, 2005
Meeting up with Darling on Friday after work is the best thing to start my weekends.. and of coz it will be accompanied by a nice dinner. Yesterday after meeting Darling at CityHall, we went to the Indonesian Restaurant at Suntec, the RiceTable. We were always curious about the large numebr of people sitting in there and the food looks nice too. So we decided to try.. we were supposed to go last wekk.. but I called for reservation on Thurs.. they already said it was full house on Friday!! So no choice.. booked one week in advance~ Lolz.. and there we were yesterday.
It was a dinner set and there were 20 dishes in total.. Yap~ 20! They gave the right proportion and dun worry, U will find that it's more than enough.. When u sit down.. u will be served almost immediately.. and all 20 dishes will be on the table. They are:
1) Soto Ayam - Chicken Soup
2) Archar - Pickled Cucumber
3) Gado -Gado - Salad in Penaut Sauce
4) Rudjak Manis - Fruit Salad
5)Sayur Lodeh - Vegetable Stew
6) Ayam Panggang - Grilled Chicken
7) Daging Rendang - Spicy Beef Stew
8) Ayam Kalio - Chicken Curry
9) Tahu Telor - Tofu Omelette
10) Kangkong Belachan - Waterconvolvulus
11) Perkedel Jagung - Potato-corn fritter
12) Terong Kecap - Eggplant in Soya Sauce
13) Ikan Goreng - Fried Fish
14) Sate Ayam - Chicken Satay
15) Sambal Udang - Spicy Prawns
16) Ikan Bili - Fried Anchovies
17) Ayam Goreng - Fired Chicken
18) Sotong Asam - Spicy-sour cuttlefish
19) Otak - Grilled Fishcake
20) Tahu Kuning - Curried Tofu
Yapz.. that's about it~ NOt bad to eat.. Total up plus GST everything one person about 22 bucks.. which means one dish is about 1 dollar plus or less.
After we went home.. I went to checked my mailbox as usual.. And I saw a big brown envelope. My heart skipped a bit.. I saw the word NUS at the end of the envelope.. I was excited! I didn't know it would come so early~ But then I was scared I was posted to my 2nd choice... but yay! I got into Computing! I was kind of happy but scared at the same time... I dunnoe why.. I still feel afraid of going into the Uni.. Anyway I still have about a mth to decide.. hehe so no hurry~
This morning ate breakfast with Darling.. I felt so good having breakfast with him.. Hehehz.. =)
if i ain't got you|12:15 PM|

Wednesday, April 06, 2005
I was into serious tots this afternoon.. I went to check up about psychology and then I was thinking wad my dreams are.. I've always tot that I don't have any dreams.. But I was wrong.. Actually all of us do have dreams.. just that I just placed it another part of my memory..
I even thought of retaking another poly diploma or even taking A Levels.. But I've realised it's not the end of the road yet. I've always wanted to work in labs, wearing a white coat. And the only way is to take Computational Biology (Computing) in NUS [that is if I'm accepted by NUS]. I was so happy about it until I read the admission requirements..
"The program targets to admit 40 students annually (20 each from the Faculty of Science and the School of Computing). "
Oh well.. only 20 students!!! It seems kinda impossible unless u are a very very good student~ But good news is, I've decided to give it a shot! NO matter how hard it is.. I'm going to strive hard for my dreams.
How about you? What's your dream?
if i ain't got you|7:54 PM|

I'm so late for work today.. guess today is the latest.. My HP alarm rang at 7.40A.M.. but I felt as if I've never been slping.. so I rest for a while more.. My limbs were aching and how I wish I wasn't at work today.. T_T
Anyway, before I came to work I went to deposit some cash.. and boy.. some ppl took so long to deposit.. wonder why..
I can't wait for weekends to come... Anyway I had a weird dream.. hahaha concerns quite a few people.. for one I know who is that person.. the other I dunnoe who.. but it's a funny dream thou.
if i ain't got you|9:40 AM|

Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Yay!! I've finally done some justice to my blogskin.. Lolz.. it's really irritating to see those "X"s.. pictures can't be loaded up etc..
IPP is coming but like-not-so ccoming to an end..FYPJ students gotta rush their last part of their project.. whereas most of the IPP students have done their work and preparing to submit their report.
Me?? Still as same as ever.. Done the main part of my report.. eagerly waiting for IPP to end. Weeks ends have become so precious to me.. another 2 more weekends to suffer.. Lolz.. Seems long eh..
Nothing really worth celebrating about actually.. just that I have more free time and I do not have wake up so early. There's nothing much for me to look forward to.. I miss studying actually.. Hahaa.. you can call me nuts if u want.
if i ain't got you|3:05 PM|

Monday, April 04, 2005
My blogskin is a lil screwed.. Blogskins.com is down.. Sigh.. I found out that I'm lazy to blog these days.. especially on weekends.. Blahz!
if i ain't got you|8:12 PM|

E-messenger is a chore.. it gives me headache.. I have to keep reloading and switching wondows to see if anyone msged me.. Lolz~
Oh well, my classmates are discusiing about the Malaysia trip.. either Genting, KL or both.. seems like it's real difficult to make a decision...
Weekends was fine.. went with a couple of them to look at the tour packages. My mind was no where except Aussie.. -_-'
Time of the month came.. very tired.. don't really know wad to type.. AnywaY I got my ring back.. hehehe =)
if i ain't got you|11:14 AM|

Friday, April 01, 2005
Okie... Darling asked me to place the list of things I wanna get after my pay.. Hahhahazz~ Updated list for the things I want~
1) iPod Mini Skin
2) Perfume
3) A pair of Jeans (hopefully not from Levis)
4) V-neck tops
5) Polo Ts
6) Bag
7) Watch with a metallic strap
8) Lipstick
9) Somemore skirts =)
10) Bra >.<
Oh well.. I hope this time they give me my PAY!
if i ain't got you|10:25 AM|
